Sitter jag med ett glas rött. Idag har jag ätit både middag och nachos och kommer att somna med borstade tänder iförd pyjamas.
Jag håller på att somna på min post… det blir en kort summering av sjukhusdagen och så skriver jag mer senare i veckan. Det finns en del att skriva om nämligen.
Så otroligt välinvesterad tid det är att få några timmar att prata med sin bästa vän och äta underbar mat.
It started in May, maybe earlier. Probably so.
Maybe when I had to get well after the stress reaction I got when we had the break in in our home in January. Probably when my dad offered to pay for my plane ticket to Paris. Or probably when my friend from far far away asked if she could come visit me and my family here in Sweden.
It really doesn’t matter.
However, this is for you.
The wisest person I know lives on the other side of our planet. The wisest person I know is someone I got to know when I was 17 years old, in a tiny school outside Portland, Oregon.
She’s the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen. She lives her life, handles her sorrows and takes care of her loved ones like everything was meant to be. Like everything that happens to her happens for a reason.
I said goodbye to her at the Portland airport in 1998. I saw her once 1999.
Then we spent a few days in Paris, in May 2013.
I have never met a person who understands me as well as she does. Who makes me laugh, who makes me think, who makes me reconsider the very being of myself. In a positive way. She has a gift.
“If you keep on doing the same, you can’t expect a change.”
She told me this one day in Paris. It rained like crazy and we were talking about my hair. All cuddled up in the couch in “our” apartment. We were talking about my dry hair that felt like a hay stack. Frizzy, highlighted, badly cut mess.
The sentence made sense. On so many levels and it has stayed with me ever since.
If you keep on doing the same, you can’t expect a change. No matter if it’s the quality of your hair, your skin, your weight, how you negotiate, how you solve he disagreement with your life partner or child.
If you keep on doing the same, things will never change.
YOU are the very source of change. YOU are what needs to change in order to start a change in anyone, or anything, else. YOU effect everything around you.
Going further, this means that I am capable of change.
The Paris trip. I will never forget the days in Paris. They were life changing for me.
They have made me a better person. They have made me want to live my life to the fullest. To not be afraid of change. To believe in me.
I know that you have faith in me. That gives me strength every day.
And I know that when I take my family to see you, they will understand, exactly what I mean.
To life. To friendship. To you.